it's been too long
my pen feels clumsy in my hand
mistake after mistake
misintentional
words keep jumping up half-formed
what happened to my dictionaries
my novels
my worlds of words and letters
that sprang so easily in my waking mind?
not dry
but too long untapped
not abandoned
but the path is half forgotten to time
so much that I fumble on my way inside my own inspiration
here it isa font of ink
bubbling in my brain
and so it flows
Yahrzeit ::For My Grandpa:: by dragolia, literature
Literature
Yahrzeit ::For My Grandpa::
I remember calling you on your birthday.
Missed you the first time,
(you were at choir practice)
had to call again.
We talked about what I was writing.
(a play for class)
You said comedy was harder than tragedy.
You were only half right.
More laughs than tears,
although there were plenty of those.
We sang for you,
hoping somewhere you could hear us.
I don't have to hope.
I know we sang loud enough.
Ever had the back of your neck prickle with what could be?
Turn off the light and scurry under the covers,
for there are dark things waiting for your vulnerability.
It's just a hop, skip, and a
jump into the nightmare.
Feel that coldness?
Do you feel that draft?
Do you know what's lurking in the shadows?
Is it something black-hearted and gruesome?
Waiting to play dice with your soul?
Or just tug your ankle to watch you flinch
as
Ten hours
There is nothing to be afraid of
You think
(There is nothing to worry about)
Eight hours
Still.
You aren't in bad shape
(Yet, your mind whispers)
Six hours
Almost there
You believe
(Not even close)
Four hours
Halfway
Halfway
(Only a quarter)
Two hours
Quick count up
Then count again, slower
(Now you understand. Now the demon on your shoulder laughs.)
Zero hour
Flustered
Tired
(C+ for effort. In the end, it was what you hoped for.
And deserved.)
It's like that sometimes.
You just sit back and let your feet do the walking,
the deciding.
Left
Right
Another left
You start thinking of yourself as a serpent,
what with the way you take the corners.
An alley looks like a sound choice but it's a dead
end.
Turn around and keep going.
You wonder if you'll get lost.
You wonder if you'll get found.
Let your feet do the walking,
the deciding.
Right
Left
Left
The dull thud of your shoes on pavement is
mesmerizing.
hypnotic.
You wonder if you have any breadcrumbs in your pocket.
You wonder if the witch's house is made of gluten-free gingerbread.
You wonder how long you've bee
If you want me, come and get me.
If you want me, come and get me.
Our eyes lock.
Our eyes lock.
I smile.
I smile.
My hands are shaking.
My hands are shaking.
My feet are lead.
My feet are lead.
If you want me, come and get me.
If you want me, come and get me.